...If I had a proper explanation as to why I've abandoned my DeviantArt for the best part of half a year, around now is probably roughly the time that I would give it. Unfortunately I'd be lying if I said I had one pinpointable reason for not being here, it's just been a mixture of lots of things. Schoolwork, massively, since I'm in sixth form now and that's pretty stressful in places, and then other things too, like changing interests, laziness, money...all sorts really. Now I'm thinking about it, laziness is probably the key one. Sorry.
If you still watch me even after all the abandonment, well, you're mighty fine. If you're reading this, thank you, it's nice that someone's still interested. Since you're here, maybe you could help me a little. Like I said, I think part of why I've been absent for so long is that my interests are changing a bit. I still like cosplaying, but because of time and money being saved for other things, it's been on the back burner for a while. I still like writing, but most of my ideas take months to finish, or even get round to at all. The only thing I've actually been doing more of recently is probably photography and some fanfiction for little-known fandoms (not that you'd be able to tell anyway since I never upload anything ). So... If you're reading this, please tell me! What would you like to see me doing more of on deviantart? It'd be motivating in a way to simply have some ideas, I guess. If I don't get any feedback from this, that's okay, but don't expect my activity to pick up any time soon. I uh....just was hoping for some small ideas, I guess. That'd be nice.
Another reason I'm writing this tonight is because I'm a hideous procrastinator. I have a biology exam first thing tomorrow morning, and if I'm honest, I'm more stressed right now than I know what to do with myself. I might do some more revision in a few minutes, but right now I'm hiding like the weakling I am. Also I like the sound of typing on my keyboard, it's comforting.
So, because I get bored and procrastinate, I'll treat you to a short update on my truly fascinating life. If you took the last sentence seriously in any way, you're an idiot. My personal experience of narcissists has been quite enough to put me off ever showing similar tendencies. *shudder*
So anyway, it's the end of the A-level exam season over here in the UK, near enough. I've got two more and then I'm done and wow I'm relieved about that. I didn't care about any of my exams except for one last year, an attitude I might not have had if my school had given half a shit about me. Anyway, I did kind of badly and that was that, but this year at my new school, I feel like I have a lot more potential, and at least in most of my exams so far, I feel like I've done okay. However, now that I actually care about these exams, I also get a lot more stressed about them. That's less good, but come Wednesday night, I can breathe out and relax just a bit at last. I'm looking forward to it.
I've been gaming quite a lot more recently too, and I regret nothing. The most recent new game I completed was Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core, and wow. Just...wow. IT BROKE MY FREAKING SOUL. I know people say that a lot about games and TV shows and films but it honestly did. I cried myself to sleep that night and randomly burst into tears several times for about a week after. It's beautiful, I really recommend you play it if you can. I've also been replaying a couple of older favourites, like Majora's Mask and Wind Waker (both Zelda games), and they're brilliant exam de-stressers. I honestly don't know what I'd do without Zelda, it's been massive in my life for such a long time. ;u;
Uhhhhmmm... I've been exercising a little more recently, which is kinda nice in its own way. I'm disgustingly unfit, so it's hard work, but I've just gotten completely sick of feeling so squidgey, so I'm doing something about it, and I'm proud of that. I'm working towards an abdomen like Yohio's by the time summer comes round, if possible, and that brings me on to my next point. YOHIO. He's a visual kei star, but he's kinda unusual in that he hails from Sweden of all places. However this doesn't seem to have hindered him from essentially becoming visually oriental or becoming fluent in Japanese. He's seventeen, which makes his fame and abilities all the more ridiculous (he is also seriously incredible on guitar, you should look it up), and to be honest I could go on about him all night for one reason or another. I'm not going to, though, because I don't need to lose any more watchers. But honestly, he's really catchy and talented, I recommend you take a look. And as a final point of interest, he knows Gackt, and if you know me, you know that Gackt is the most important thing in my life, pretty much. Hence why I've been pretty upset recently at the tax evasion, embezzlement, and rape allegations he's been faced with. He's 39 years of age. He's a heavy smoker. He's 180cm tall but weighs only a few kilograms more than me. He's on his first national tour in four years and yet he's still staying up all night working on his new album, too. He's fainting after every show because he always gives too much because he loves his fans too much. I can't be the only person who therefore thinks flinging this kind of horse shit in his direction is exceedingly cruel. None of it is true, and it kinda upsets me what the tabloids are doing to him, because he's upset about it too, even if he's pretending largely that he's just deflecting all the blows, I'm pretty sure he isn't. So, I hope that clears up soon.
...And I guess that's probably about it for now. If you've read all this, thank you! And like I said....somewhere back up this entry, please let me know what you'd like to see me doing a bit more from now on, it would mean a lot to me. I'll see you soon, I hope~~